Hello little faith,
I know that right now going to a new school and being around complete strangers seems very scary and overwhelming, and I'm not going to lie, at the beginning it's going to be. But you'll find really awesome friends and people who will look out for you and understand you. Your high school experience will go by in a blink of an eye so please savour it, it literally feels like yesterday that i was in grade nine. Although you'll meet a lot of amazing people and have good friends, some of the people you will meet won't be as kind and will be really evil, so remember to stay strong and when you realize things aren't right stop talking to them.
My anxiety has improved a bit, however it's still here, I am learning how to manage it better though! I finally found my own style, i dont really dress super crazy anymore. I wish I had the confidence now, I usually dress more tame and basic now with the occasional ridiculous shirt. I also have gotten much funnier, unfortunately, i do not find danganronpa joke peak humour anymore, im sorry younger faith.
I also remember being very scared to have a bus for the first time. I don't know if this one is real or if it was a dream of me being scared of going on the bus but I got over it. Going on it every day has made it just a part of my daily routine so I'm not anxious about it anymore! I think the only time in recent times i have been stressed to go on the bus was last year, mom and dad got separated (finally) and now i live part time in battawa and the bus driver was a complete and utter bitch, I hate her with a passion. But im pretty sure she got fired so it okay, we have a new bus driver for that bus
The overall idea is that things are going to be scary at the beginning but they will turn out fine! And a lot of these experiences have taught me to be braver and more willing to try new things
love, older faith
Dear future me...